Admittedly, for a long time, I struggled with finding the motivation to write. My first major problem was that I didn’t know where to write. These days, I’m more into technology so I wanted to write a blog online somewhere instead of handwriting everything. I actually had an old wordpress a few years ago, which is now long deleted, where I would write solely about video games. Then I realized I also wanted to write about music and maybe post some of my photography. But that wouldn’t vibe well with my video game stuff. So, I ended up just shutting the blog down and not doing anything.
I also tried Livejournal for years. I would always go on there and be, “oh hey, I’m going to write here everyday about stuff” and it would work for a couple of days, then I would lose my motivation again and just never log back in for another year (literally), just to do the same thing all over again whenever I eventually did go back. It made me wonder how I was able to sometimes update on Livejournal multiple times a day when it was hard to even update it once a day. How?!
Back in February, I decided to try my hand at opening an Instagram account for screenshots of the video games I played (virtual photography, which I will write about a little more soon), and just gaming in general. At first, it was very much centered around Resident Evil, but since then, has kind of turned into a more Final Fantasy 7 Remake based account. Though, I definitely do plan on posting more content on there than just Final Fantasy! It’s good in a way though, because going through the screenshots I took from FF7R really inspired me, and one in particular really got me thinking about how and where I wanted to write:
I wish I had taken more photos of Aerith’s garden and her house in general. It’s such a peaceful area in the game and I really loved being there. I mean, who wouldn’t want to live there?! Next time I play, I will definitely be capturing more footage of this area. Anyway, an interesting point to make is that Aerith really became one of my favorite characters from the entirety of Final Fantasy in this remake. I always loved her, but felt like I identified more with Tifa. However, Aerith really struck me in this. I’d love to look at the original FF7, Advent Children, FF7R (and all other FF7 related games/media) to find more insight as to how this happened. Maybe over the years it’s because I prefer playing as characters who cast magic? Maybe I prefer playing the healer role? Maybe I feel more for Aerith because of her backstory now? After editing the photo for my Instagram, I thought of the title of Aerith’s Garden as a place to share my thoughts on various subjects, and felt that if I could even write at least 500 words a day on anything, it would help me get back into writing.
I’m glad that Aerith and her garden were able to give me inspiration to make this blog, as cheesy as it sounds. And thank you for reading my tiny ramble of the day.